Playing Catch Up

Well I want to say that none of our boys did well last night.
Rangers lost to the Cardinals and my high school alumni Fighting Farmers lost their rival game, YET AGAIN. Grrrr.
So since the ending of the 30 day challenge, I have been what seems like crazy busy.
I went to Waco for a camp meeting and still need to get my resume and reference letters turned in for that. On top of all that, I am trying to plan some free photo sessions so I can get some "teens" on my portfolio as well as planning out mini sessions for the month of November. Along with all that, I have been trying to interview and get a job with Glamour Shots portrait studio. Still waiting to hear from them if I have the job or not.
Last night, I took my 5 yr old to my alumni rival game "Battle of the Axe"

Our mascot "Fighting Farmer: Big John"

The Football players

(Taken from my friend's Facebook) Waiting for our team to run through the sign

"The Band that Marches with Pride" (Our high school band)

Either way, it has been busy and tonight I am attending a Halloween Party with some friends and then Halloween is Monday so I will be taking the kiddos out for that. Then November starts. Where has this year gone?

30 Days of Me - Day 30

Day 30 - Who are you?

I am a.....
Mother,
Friend/Best Friend

As well as Enemy

Sister
Aunt
Photographer
Leader/Follower

Singer
Gamer
Fanatic
Organized

And most of all and most important.....

I am me!

30 Days of Me - Day 29

Day 29 - In the past month, what have you learned?

In the past month, I have learned there are times where I have to leave the room, the house, etc just to calm my nerves and hope that no one takes offense to it. 

A big thing I have learned is to calm all my senses and think about what I am about to say before really saying it. As well as saying what I am really thinking and not just dancing around the matter. Doing that has really helped me have conversations with people I may not have had conversations with before. 

I have learned a bit more about myself than what I already knew, how to express myself is just one way but another is NOT being afraid of expressing myself. I have learned that being myself is not a bad thing, that we are all individuals and that is what makes me different. I have learned that there are people out there that do care and want to help so I have learned to open up to them and share what I am feeling and accept their help.

More things I have learned are ways to make myself happy. Whether that be taking a really hot long shower, going out for drinks with the girls, pinning on Pinterest, reading a book, playing Solitaire or Tetris on my phone in a quiet room, or just watching a movie on Netflix. I have learned that *I* have to be happy to.

30 Days of Me - Day 28

Day 28 - Your favorite movie.

My all time favorite movie is While You Were Sleeping. 

I am a big Sandra Bullock fan and a sucker for romantic comedies. I have been watching this movie forever and I still try to watch it every Christmas holiday. It reminds me that love finds you in the most odd moments or situations but it shows you who you truly are and to be honest with your heart! 

State Fair Break

The Texas State Fair is one of THE biggest fairs in the country. I was thankful enough to have a friend invite me to go with them yesterday for a break away from it all. It was in the mid 60s all day which would have been nice if it wasn't for the crazy ridiculous wind. It also would've been a BETTER day had my camera battery not lasted only about an hour. I have 3 batteries around this house and only one of them is a piece of crap and I ended up having THAT one in my camera at the time. No worries, as soon as I got home, I put a big giant "X" on it so that way I know it is the bad battery and won't use it anymore.

The photos posted below were all taken with my cell phone so excuse the not so great quality.

Bumblebee showed up to the fair...he even had his Autobot Logo on the tires and the side

All in all, it was a great day at the fair and I ended it with a crazy wild ride on the ferris wheel. I do NOT do heights very well. I can do roller coasters and such but not something that SLOWLY goes through the air and occasionally makes stops even if you are the very tip top. But, now I can say I have done that and that is one thing I can mark off my bucket list (even if it wasn't on there to begin with!) 

Looking forward to next year. 

30 Days of Me- Day 27

Day 27 - A photo of yourself a year ago and yourself now. How have you changed?

The most obvious way I have changed would be my weight for sure. My hair is longer and darker and I don't have that same phone! Ha. 

30 Days of Me - Day 26

Day 26 - A letter to yourself 10 years ago

 Dear 17-year old Teresa,
You will be leaving high school in less than 3 months and then reality will set in. You will be off to college and that is where your life will start.
Word of advice: Do not rush into anything. Take your time with everything including school work. You will have the rest of your life to do whatever you want; when you want.
Guys will come along and try to sweet talk you into anything but please, go with your gut and listen to your instincts. They all aren't "nice guys". When the nice guys come around, stop your irrational reasoning as to why you can't be with them and just be with them. Live your life at that moment. Stop living in the "what if" moment or the future and live in the "here and now" moment.
Eventually a guy will come along and try to be your knight in shining armor. You will marry him and have a son with him. That son will be the light of your life but you will not be happy at all during that marriage. My advice to you would to not move in with him when he offers. Get to know him a bit more and learn who he is. Then when you know for sure that you know him, then you can move in with him. Take a little bit longer to plan your wedding to him and be sure that is what you really want. If you are still not happy after all that time, just move on. Don't stay in it too long for the wrong reasons.
You will know true happiness eventually and when you do you will smile on the outside as well as the outside and in your heart. You will think about that person every day and miss them more than everything. You will ache when you are apart from that person and you will ache when you say goodbye until next time. Take that slow as well but embrace the happiness and never, never, never forget why you fell in love with that person and just how much they mean to you at that very moment.
From your future self

30 Days of Me - Day 25

Day 25 - What is in your purse/bag?

I'm soon going to have to find a new 30 day challenge being as this may be the first one I have finished! Ha. Only 5 more days to go.
So, today, what is in my purse?!? Wow....all I can say is TOO MUCH CRAP! Just like my make up bag, it too is over flowing.

Without looking, I can tell you have I have a wallet, 3 lipglosses, 1 tube of chapstick, business cards, cash, debit card, receipts, a pumpkin patch flyer, some feminine products for when the time may arise and I am not home and A LOT...I repeat A LOT of change.

30 Days of Me - Day 24

Day 24 - A photo of something that means a lot to you

This photo means the world to me. My grandmother was diagnosed with lung cancer years ago and when I was pregnant she didnt think she could finish my son's baby quilt that she hand sews for all the new grandbabies. She made the quilt but there are areas that she didnt finish but it doesn't bother me because I didnt know if she was gonna make it through to see her great grandson. This photo was taken in April of 2007 when my son was 7 months old. This is the first time they have met. I am proud to say that my grandmother beat the nasty cancer she had only for it to come back but she is fighting harder and harder every day and I love her very much.

Sick Cycle Carousel

The Texas Rangers are taking names and kicking @$$ this season yet I feel all the curveballs being thrown are in my direction.
I try NOT to take pride in being a nice person or having a great heart because I will be dead honest and tell you that I can seriously be a %&@#& when the time calls for it and I can seriously rip you a new one if I feel you deserve it.
I have been told by at least one person in specific that I am a great mother, I have a good heart and I can be a really nice person. But yet at the same time I get belittled, put down, insulted and joked about. How is one supposed to take all those compliments seriously when they are pretty much being thrown at the same window they came in from?!
I am not asking to be complimented every day because I too can joke how bad I look, how fat I feel, how big my thighs or my nose are, how messy my hair is, or how just awful I did my make up. BUT, it is okay to joke with me about those things at the same time I am joking about them. Making a joke that someone looks like crap when someone feels like they are on their deathbed and KNOWING they look like crap is not funny. Especially if you are that person's significant other/spouse/partner (whatever). I don't expect anyone to crack a lie either and say the person is beautiful or handsome or whatever the case may be....unless that is truly what comes from your heart.
I have been put down and then brought back up just to be knocked back down again. I no longer want to feel that way. I want someone that will wake up next to me and even though we both have morning breath, kiss me good morning. I want someone that will give me soup, tissues, medicine and still curl up on the couch with me or in the bed with me and watch TV or movies with me when I am sick; not afraid to get sick themselves. I want someone who will take my hand when I am at a crossroads in life and tell me they will never let go and they will be by my side until the path has been chosen. I want someone to tell me they care and tell me they understand and TRULY mean it.
I am at that fork in the road right now in life. I have friends that share their opinions and give me their advice. I also have those friends that just sit and listen contently without interruptions and lets me vent and cry and in the end just holds me and tells me that they are sorry I am going through all this and wishes they can do more to help but the most important thing is that they are there and not going anywhere anytime soon.
I had a friend back in high school make me a mixed CD...yes back then they were CD's not tapes! Ha. Either way, there is this song on there that I completely forgot about and haven't heard since I got that CD YEARS and YEARS ago and it is now on repeat in my car. What song is it, you ask? Lifehouse-Sick Cycle Carousel The song means completely different to others than it does for me. The lead singer says the meaning of the song is that the carousel that he cannot get off of is the continued trap of sin, and the final realization that he can be saved by grace alone, and can't do it on his own. Others see it as a guy chasing after a girl and she keeps putting him down or leading him on. But to me it means that you're in that point in your relationship in which you must make a choice if you are going stay together or not. The relationship is not going to so well and it's just a cycle of bad decisions and you have to make the choice of whether or not you're going to make the right decision. Hence the name "sick cycle carousel" because it's like making the same mistakes over and over and never really fixing them.
Personally, I am ready to get off this carousel of pain and unhappiness.

If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time

'Cause I try to climb your steps
I try to chase you down
I try to see how low I can get down to the ground
I try to earn my way
I try to change this mind
You better believe that I am trying to beat this

So when will this end
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time

'Cause I try to climb your steps
I try to chase you down
I try to see how low I can get down to the ground
And i try to earn my way
I try to change this mind
You better believe that I am trying to beat this,

So when will this end
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this

Sick cycle carousel, this is a sick cycle, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle yeah

So when will this end
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

When will this end
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel
Sick cycle carousel

One day, one day I will finally be off this carousel that just keeps spinning further and further out of control and when I do, I know it will take me a while to walk in the right direction after all that spinning but I will find my footing and move on to a much smoother ride that goes in a straight line and not backwards or in circles.

30 Days of Me - Day 23

Day 23 - Something you never leave the house without.

Today is a simple day! I never leave the house without my cell phone. It has my GPS on it incase my GPS in my car doesn't have the place I am looking for. It has all my contacts incase I do get lost because neither of my GPS's are working so I can call my hubby or whoever else that isn't as directionally challenged as myself. It also has a camera and video camera on it incase I am out and about at Walmart and just want to pull up a lawn chair and just start snapping photos/videos for The People of Walmart. On top of that it also has a clock so I know what time it is and it has many apps on it to tell me where the cheapest gas is, Kids Eat Free restaurants are, what the weather is, etc.
So it comes in VERY handy and I TRY my hardest not to leave the house without it!

30 Days of Me - Day 22

Day 22 - What makes you different from everyone and why.

When asking myself "what makes me different from everyone?" Nothing seriously comes to mind. 

I like country music but so does a lot of other people. 

I have a son but so do many other people. 

I live in Texas but, again, so does a lot of others. 

I could tell you that I am a very independent person; yet I depend on others. But, in the end I am not sure I am the only one with that trait. 

So, therefore, I will not sit with my hand on my chin doing the thinking man any longer and I will just tell you what makes me different from everyone else. 

BECAUSE I AM ME!!!! 

30 Days of Me - Day 21

Day 21 - Short term goals for this month and why 

My short term goals for this month are as follows:
* Find a full time job because I will sooner or later be divorced and on my own

* Find a place of my own because the reason I listed above

* Find out who my true friends are because I will be needing some real ones sooner or later. 

30 Days of Me - Day 20

Day 20 - A letter to your parents.

Mom,

I love you! You are one of the strongest women I know. Why? Well you were a single mom for a while to 3 kids and on top of that getting re-married and adding another child to the brood along with raising one grandchild along with one for at least a year. You are a true inspiration. 

I love you for so many reasons! Because you taught me to respect, you allowed me to be a kid, you disciplined me with love in your heart, you never gave up when I felt like doing so, you made me laugh and smile and you loved me unconditionally. You always believed in me and you never placed me under any conditions and even through my darkest times you were always my sunshine. 

30 Days of Me- Day 19

Day 19 - Your nicknames and why you have them or who gave them to you.

This post is like opening a can of worms. I will try to list them all and the correct reasons as to why I have them. 

Mommy-because my son calls me that

Mama- hubby calls me that around my son

Babe/Baby-hubby calls me that as well as some of my really close girl friends

Teri-my mom call(ed/s) me that

Teesa-because my sister couldn't call me Teresa

Ter Bear-a friend in high school called me that 

I think that is all of them. 

30 Days of Me - Day 18

Day 18 - A letter to someone you miss.

In the almost 28 years I have been placed on this Earth, I have lost many. Lost as in forever sent to be Angels. Lost as in no longer friends or in contact with. 

I can sit here and think of many off the top of my head that I miss. I cannot write a letter. 

Angels I am missing: My great grandparents Enderle as they always had a way of making me laugh. My Uncle Jim who was just a free spirit. My Uncle Rex...the Firework King! My Grammy who was just about as stubborn and hard headed as myself...if not more! My friends Kristen, Emmett and John who were taken from this world just way too young. And to the many church family I had met over the past years that gave me advice, hugs and smiles that have gone to be angels. 

Friends I am missing: I will not name them all but if we were friends at one point and are no longer....then you know I am talking about you. That is, if we are no longer friends because we just lost contact with one another or because we just fell further apart. 

30 Days of Me - Day 17

Day 17 - Your celebrity crush.

THIS is my ultimate celebrity crush. He is just beautiful inside and out as well as a great actor! 

30 Days of Me - Day 16

Day 16 - A photo that makes you smile.

*Phew.....all caught up FINALLY*

These are photos of 2 of my 3 dogs. This picture always makes me giggle. Why....well are we looking at the same photo. Doggie tushies! Sticking out from underneath a futon!

I was working on the computer one day and looked around as the dogs were awful quiet (ruh row!) and saw this and INSTANTLY grabbed my phone and snapped a photo.

Then again, really any photos of my pups make me smile.
Look below for more: 

We don't have many rules on accepting dogs into our family except one major rule: YOU MUST HAVE A GREAT PERSONALITY!!! We DO NOT accept boring dogs! As you can tell!!!!

Stomach Flu

Sorry I haven't been keeping up with the 30 Days of Me Challenge. I was dealing with a 24 hour stomach flu that actually really kept me down about 36 hours and still has me dehydrated half of yesterday and so far this morning. Black outs are not fun but neither is staying in bed all day either. It may sound fun to those who are always on the go but trust me......once you are in bed for almost 12-24 hours, you are ready to get up and do laps!
I am going to attempt to catch up now on all the days I have missed.

30 Days of Me - Day 15

Day 15 - Put your Ipod/MP3 player on shuffle-the first 10 songs.

1. Born To Be Wild - Steppenwolf

2. Bed of Roses - Bon Jovi

3. Don't Talk to Strangers - Rick Springfield

4. Womanizer - Britney Spears

5. Colder Weather - Zac Brown Band

6. Dirty Dancer - Enrique Iglesias

7. Honey Bee - Blake Shelton

8. F*ing Perfect - Pink

9. Ironic - Alanis Morrisette

10. Just a Kiss - Lady Antebellum 

There is quite a variety. I can't wait to see your list so I can download some of your tunes. 

Although, do you ever put it on shuffle and hear a song and ask yourself "when the heck did I download that song?" Ha! 

30 Days of Me - Day 14

Day 14 - Something you love about yourself.

My eyes! I love my eyes! I have always loved my eyes! They change color according to either what I wear or my mood and heck, they photograph very very well!
These photos were taken by Leslie Spurlock Photography back in 2009 and  I am not sure why they have lines through them....maybe the upload process or something but just ignore those. 

30 Days of Me - Day 13

Day 13 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

To whom it may concern:
(You know who you are if you are reading this!)

I love you and we've been through our fair share of ups and downs, we have even had our disagreements on certain aspects of my life as well. I want you to know that you did teach me some things along the way and I am grateful that I was fortunate enough to have you in my life.

You cannot take back the hurtful things you have said. Yes, sometimes, as humans, we say things we may not mean but the things you have said.....you would only say if you truly meant them.

I really trusted in you and was shocked when things didn’t go how I expected. It made me trust less in you and made me really doubt my whole world. I know this is not all about you and I need to take responsibility in this as well. We have to learn from our experiences, we have to grow from them or we are forced to learn greater lessons because we are then just repeating things.

I do hope one day that you will find happiness because everyone does deserve to have something dear in their life to hold on to.