This week, my only goal was to get some sleep and try to refrain from yelling or any arguing. Okay, that goal was shot out the window by day 1. I will not lie, my marriage is falling apart. I will not lie when I say that my husband pretty much blames it all on my past, the way I was raised and/or the fact that I have been trying to make everyone in my life proud of me being as I didn't hear that a lot in the past and in the process I am truly just disappointing myself.
Therefore, the thing I did for myself this week happened in the past couple hours.
I sat down, with the kids upstairs playing video games, in the dark and watched "Eat Pray Love" with Julia Roberts and James Franco and many other great actors/actresses.
'Eat Pray Love,' is an inspirational drama based on Elizabeth (Liz) Gilbert's best-selling memoir. Liz played by Julia Roberts is a woman who, on the surface, has it all - a career, a husband and new home. However, she realizes that she no longer has a thirst for life. After a bitter divorce, she decides to journey overseas to Italy, India and Indonesia to find rediscover the true meaning of herself and life. 'Eat Pray Love' is an inspiring story and the quotes are enough to melt your heart.
That movie was pretty much the way my life has been going and the way I need it to be. There were some great sayings in that movie that touched my heart so deeply and taught me that maybe I need to take a step back and look into my life and see how I need to balance it a bit better.
"Tis' better to live your own life imperfectly than to imitate someone else's perfectly."
"There’s a crack (or cracks) in everyone…that’s how the light of God gets in."
"Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions."
"You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight."
And my favorite of them all that happened in the first 10 minutes of the movie, reminded me of what I am going through now:
"The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving."
Maybe, just maybe, I should travel the globe to countries like Elizabeth did but then again, maybe I don't. Maybe, I just need to travel into my past and my inner soul and do some cleansing.
Maybe I just need "ME!" time!
Now it's YOUR turn!
What did you do to get your groove back this week?